GRE and Essays

The last few months have been quite stressful for me. In December I started to study for the GRE, which was not a pleasant experience. For those of you who don't know, the exam is split into three different sections: math, verbal reasoning and essay writing. The worst part of this process was relearning all the math that I learned in high school. Keep in mind I hadn't even touched a calculator for 10 years before last December. Having said that, studying for the verbal section wasn't that much better. I had to memorize hundreds and hundreds of words that I knew I would never use in my life, and the worst part is, none of the words showed up on the test. The essay writing, on the other hand, was a little bit easier, but still was frustrating. Even though I write all the time, I only write what I'm interested in, but for the GRE, they'll give you some random topic that you've never thought about before so the process still wasn't pleasant.

Fortunately, it turns out that my hard work paid off. On the whole, I scored in the 88 percentile which is quite good. I'm glad I don't have to take it again because the GRE was really affecting my sleep.

Another huge burden that I had recently was writing my essays for this semester. I unfortunately didn't do very well last semester so I really wanted to make up for it this time, but I don't think I was successful. I just turned in my papers a couple of days ago and I was only satisfied with one of them. The other one I actually rewrote just a few days prior because the first draft was that bad. The class in general was difficult so it took awhile for me to wrap my head around the material. In the end, I don't really know what grade I'm going to get, but the fact that I'm not happy with it makes me sad anyways. I truly dislike writing about things I don't care for. I know that may sound obvious, but I feel like I dislike it more than other people do. And although I understand that writing about other topics will give me a wider understanding of the field, I still don't want to do it.

Ultimately, I'm relieved to have the GRE and my essays over with. I can now focus on my theory of natural diversity, which is what I've been looking forward to this entire year.