Asking a Girl Out

Recent events have made me start thinking about relationships again. Although the idea was always in the back of my head, it hadn't occupied much of my thoughts until now. Long story short, I asked someone out and she declined. This was the first time that I properly asked a girl out and unfortunately, it didn't turn out well. What's even worse is that she first said yes, but then said no after she realized that it was a date. For two days I had the false belief that I was successful.

Being rejected is definitely a horrible feeling. The worst part about it is the fact I felt very vulnerable; I felt like I had no control over the situation. Of course I knew I was taking a chance when I asked her and of course I understand that making the first move is always a gamble, but I truly believed that I read her body language correctly. I have no idea what went wrong. It is a sad day when I want to give up on dating as a whole and just accept the fact that I will probably be alone. The disappointment and frustration I feel discourages me from ever asking a girl out again and I know I shouldn't think this, but I can't help it.

The question “Why should I make the first move?” is constantly running through my mind. It's 2012 for God's sake! The woman should make the first move! I refuse to accept the fact that men are expected to play their gender roles.