A Humbling Experience

Three months have passed since I started working for the Institute. I believe now is a good time to reflect on what I think about my job.

Of all the things that I have learned working there, none other has had more of a psychological impact than the realization that everyone is good at what they do. Originally, I had thought I would bring more to the table, but my contributions turned out to be minimal. I quickly realized that I was an amateur surrounded by professionals. And even though I knew I had very little experience, I thought I could make my presence more known. Sadly, I did not completely understand what the job required of me. I knew what my duties were, but there were many more things that needed to be done which I was unqualified for.

Too often I attended meetings and had nothing significant to say. I was constantly afraid that my employer regretted hiring me and to a certain extent, I still am. The type of person needed in a start-up is someone who is very knowledgeable of the field and has a clear vision of what they want to accomplish. I think it would have been more suitable for them to have hired me later on, once operations were already up and running. Of course I am glad that they hired me when they did, but objectively speaking, I do not think I would have if I had been in their shoes.

Having said all that, I do enjoy my job, now more than ever. We have launched our new website and I am busy doing what I did with the C2C Portal. I am extremely lucky to have a job that I would do for free.