On Love and Relationships

After reading John Stuart Mill's autobiography, I realized that he wrote very little about his love life. The only reason I can imagine why he would leave such a large part of his life out is because of the lack of utility it would have on others who would eventually read about his life. However understandable this reason may be, I find it such a pity that people will never get to know him from a different perspective.

Seeing how I have received such inspiration and knowledge from him, it makes sense that I would like to live a similar life of an intellectual. However, unlike him, I would want people who read my writings in the future to have a holistic understanding of what type of person I was and therefore, I find it appropriate now to explain my current status on love and relationships.

It is very difficult for me to be truly attracted to someone. As I have become older, I have had a better understanding of what type of person I would want to be with and my current desire is to be with a fellow intellectual. I should say that I have always been picky in the past, but for different reasons. I have had many changing criteria ever since high school, but I never really stayed true to them, so to be honest, I am not quite sure how true I will stay to them next time.

I find most women my age to be immature. Most of them I meet are into shopping and do not care much for the world. Most of them do not enjoy deep conversations and seem to have to no interest in developing themselves as an ends in itself. Is it too much to ask for someone with passion and intellect?

I have been single for about a year now and I do admit that I miss holding someone and being held. But at the same time, I would not want to shortchange myself by being with someone who did not attract me with their mind and heart. And so I wait.