My Life Continues

A lot has happened in my life since the last time I wrote an entry. I decided to end my Cradle to Consumer project because I felt like it was not going anywhere. It was a sad decision to make, but ultimately I am sure it was for the best. Around the time I decided to end Cradle to Consumer, I came up with an idea for another project, a website to be exact. The purpose of this website is to be the central source for cradle to cradle related news and I am happy to say that I bought a custom domain for it yesterday.

I sent the link to a few people who work for McDonough and they all responded with positive comments. In fact, a project manager at MBDC asked me if I wanted to get on a conference call with them so that they could give me some feedback. As you can imagine, I was thrilled to receive this email and literally yelled out loud. After the thought of actually speaking with them sank in, I began to feel afraid because I did not know what they were going to say. It was very possible that their comments were going to be negative.

I am relieved to say that we had the conference call yesterday and that it was positive. Long story short, they thanked me for my ongoing support and told me that they liked the website. What is really amazing is that they also told me they would bring me into the formal loop so that I would get news before it was officially released. In general, I was happy about the conference call even though it made me feel unsatisfied with my life. Let me explain.

The conference call reminded me that I have not yet done anything great in my life. This bothers me tremendously. One of the main reasons why I have not done anything great is because people cannot see the potential within me. They want me to show them pieces of paper to prove to them that I am capable of doing something. Well I do not like the fact that I need pieces of paper; my passion and intelligence should be enough! I know that what I am saying is not very reasonable and yet I am still saying it.

I want to do great things now, I KNOW I can do great things now and I do not want to wait till tomorrow.

I would like to mention one other thing before I end this entry. My recent experiences have made me realize that things that seem purposeless in the beginning might not remain that way in the future and therefore, one should not hold oneself back from doing something just because one thinks it is pointless at that time. If I were to have had a different attitude than what I had when I decided to start my projects, I would not have started them and therefore, would most likely not have gotten into contact with the c2c people. Admittedly, my projects still have not brought about anything great, not to forget I just wrote about how I am unsatisfied with my life, but all that aside, I am closer to my dream because of them.