Robot Me

My mom just asked me how my work was today (I just started working for this immigration attorney representative as an administrative assistant) and it bothered me that she asked. Right now, I can think of two reasons why it bothered me: first, I think it's pretty obvious what an administrative assistant does so I thought the question was unnecessary; and second, I don't like the job and the fact that I had to explain to her what I do thwarted the attempts to avoid thinking about it. Now that I'm writing about it, I believe it is more of the latter.

The reason why I don't like the job is because my intellect and philosophy is not required. Everyone tells me that this is how people start off, and I agree. Most people do have to start at the bottom and then work themselves upwards. But to put it frankly, I'm impatient. My mom tells me that there are many things to be learned even at the bottom, and I agree. She says, “These skills might be useful, you never know!” Again, I don't believe she is wrong. But I think the main point I'm trying to make is that I should use my mind when I work; I want my potential to be realized. I don't want to be a robot!!!

I believe these skills that my mom speaks of can be acquired even if I don't start at the bottom. And if I really do need these skills in my future, I trust myself enough to be able to learn them along the way. So the main obstacle is to get a job that requires my mind, but I don't know how to do it. I think, in this situation, my greatest ally would be luck. It is very probable that from now till I'm 30, I will be nothing more than a robot...a robot who wants to be a real human.

Revolutionary Nonviolence Coach

Job Description:
Revolutionary Position Coaching Public School Students in Nonviolence to Confront Racism, Sexism, Meaninglessness and Meanness

The Institute for Community Leadership seeks courageous individuals to work directly with students, teachers, administrators and parents in public schools in the states of Washington, Oregon and California. Applicants must be willing to change. They must be willing to study, write and work in a group setting to practice the art and science of nonviolence; to practice the development of self-control; to practice a constant renewal of the mind; and to practice a commitment to seek truth. 

Position requires working days and evenings, traveling between the above mentioned states and developing the conduct and character of an organizer dedicated to the interests of the majority of our people and to the principles of peace, community and strengthening democracy. 

This job sounds almost perfect for me; the only thing that could make it better is if it were in Germany. Needless to say, I applied to this job as well as to 20 other jobs, but this one seems to fit me the best. However, there is one main problem, they need someone with a car because the job requires the coach to drive between the states of Washington, Oregon and California. I don't plan on getting a car so I just hope that the organization and I can figure out a way around this problem.

I believe that most of the problems in this world, if not all, stem from mentality and therefore, the solution to these problems would be to change the mentality of man. However impossible that sounds is irrelevant, it is the logical conclusion. I actually have reason to believe that changing mentality is not as difficult as it seems. Leaving that aside, I believe a way I can help change mentality is to become some sort of teacher. And I know I said before that it did not matter that much what I did professionally if I could connect with people outside of work, but ultimately, it would be ideal if I could combine the two.


This weekend was pretty eventful. On Saturday, Ken and I took the green line from Norwalk all the way to Redondo Beach. From there we rode to Manhattan Beach and then all the way to Santa Monica. There was an all night light art festival on the pier called Glow. We stayed only till 1:30am because we had to ride to downtown LA to sleep over at Marlon's house. On Sunday, we went to a block party that was organized by cyclists and pretty much stayed there the entire day.

The ride from Manhattan Beach to Santa Monica was probably the most fun because we rode along the shore. The Glow event itself was a bit disappointing because they didn't have enough exhibits, but it was still worth it. I normally don't go to art exhibits, but being down here in Cerritos is extremely boring because it's so uneventful. So, I have realized that going to art exhibits, or doing something that I don't normally do, is actually quite refreshing once in awhile. The block party was a bit boring for me because it's hard for me to be social, but I guess I'm used to it because it didn't bother me that much. I don't know if I ever will be social, but I'm pretty certain that I won't ever care...I think.


It's been great being home. I've already conversed deeply and intellectually with a few of my friends and it's especially awesome because I haven't spoken with them for a long time. I mean I've spoken with them online, but it's more difficult to connect with people through the internet. I think part of this great feeling is the realization of development in your friends and in yourself. Philosophies change and it's exciting to discuss and notice how they have progressed.

I'm not sure how long I will be home for; it would depend on when I find a job or an internship, but I think I'll be here for at least the summer. I've been looking for many internships and jobs in many different fields. I'm becoming less picky by the day. I have to say that finding a job/internship was much harder than I anticipated. I thought my language abilities would give me an advantage over other people, but actually they're not very useful. I would have to find a very specific position to be able to take advantage of my languages.


Flight departure at 9:00 PM; arrival time at 6:00 PM.

I will miss my friends. I will miss my daily routine. I will miss my classes (some of them). I will miss my teachers (some of them). I will miss the subway, and I will miss the cheap prices. But most of all, I will miss the study bar, the place where my development advanced another step.