Uncertainty

I still don't know what to do with my life; I know I want to make a difference, but I just don't know the details. A part of me wants to figure out in what way I can make the biggest difference and another part of me wants to figure out which job would suit me the best. So I guess my goal would be to find a career that would satisfy both criteria. I thought before that I would gladly work for a company that sells environmentally safe technology, but now I'm not so sure. It has nothing to do with my background; I have absolutely no experience in that field. For a short time I also thought about becoming some sort of teacher because it was something I enjoyed doing, but now that idea is also slowly fading away. Even though I felt like I made a difference being a teacher, I think that difference was largely made outside of class by just chatting with the students. If that is true, then I wouldn't need to become a teacher to make a difference; I would be able to connect with people no matter what I do professionally.

Recently, I've been taking more interest into how to eliminate media censorship. This, of course, has absolutely everything to do with where I am now, in China, but it also has everything to do with my being an American. I do believe in freedom of speech; I believe in it so much that it angers me to know that American media is not objective and it angers me to know that the media in China is heavily censored. To tell you the truth, I don't know what to do about it; however, I do believe that if a problem like this were to be solved, it would be solved from the bottom up. I think the people would have to first realize the problems the current media situation creates and then start working towards how to battle against the institutions of power. I guess a career in any step of this process would be quite fulfilling, but we'll see.