It has been difficult for me to make friends the past couple of years and I believe the reason why is because there are not many people who have the same interests as me. This is, of course, very frustrating because the things I have interest in are extremely important e.g. philosophy and the environment. I believe everyone should be a philosopher and an environmentalist, not in the sense that they must have degrees in those respective fields, but in the sense that they should think deeply and protect the planet.

On a brighter note, I believe that there is hope; I believe an active, persistent minority can enlighten the passive, oblivious majority. In fact, I believe it has already happened as we can see in the civil rights movement, the women's movement, and the environmental movement; battles have been fought and won, all in the name of righteousness. So I tell myself not to be pessimistic, hope is not lost; on the contrary, our influence is growing!


Thank you for your application for an internship with UNIDO. I regret having to inform you that the Private Sector Development Branch has not been in a position to find a suitable placement for you. 

Please let me know if you would be interested in having an internship in another area.

Further we thank you for your interest in the work of the Organization and wish you every success for the future.

Best regards
UNIDO Internship Coordinator

I'm currently pretty disappointed; I was really hoping to get this internship. On the bright side, at least they asked me if I was interested in other areas, so maybe hope isn't lost. I told them that anything to do with human rights, media or the environment would be fine, but I really don't know if they will find me a suitable position because my background is quite unrelated. Ah well, I guess this just means that I should apply for more internships. But I have to say that I'm not very confident because I applied for this internship through a contact and so I had a bigger chance of getting this one.

I think what made me especially sad was the fact that I was imagining myself in Vienna already. My imagination went wild when I applied; I even imagined writing a blog entry saying that I got the internship. I guess this is just another way of saying that I got my hopes up, but I don't regret it. I also applied for an internship with the EU, but I'm not going to hear back from them until next month so I'll try not to get my hopes too high.

Recognition and Acceptance

I have a responsibility to help people in need; I have a responsibility to this world. I believe everyone  has this responsibility, but most just refuse to recognize and/or accept it. So why do I recognize and accept it? I believe my recognition and acceptance of my responsibility was a direct result of my enlightenment and my belief in love. My enlightenment refers to my mental development during high school and university, but in this case, I am specifically referring to the realization of the effects on the world that America has. My belief in love refers to an ideology which depicts a small portion of how I imagine an advanced society would be.

I hear the US consumes almost a quarter of the world's resources, but only consists of 3% of the world's population. I believe we can all agree that there is something terribly wrong with this picture. This is not only a problem that needs to be addressed, but also a perfect example of how America affects the rest of the world and so, being an American, I have a direct responsibility to the rest of the world. I have also heard that America used to emit the largest amount of CO2 and has only recently been surpassed by China. From this alone, I can conclude that every American has the specific responsibility to reduce CO2 emissions.

My belief in love is the very basic idea that everyone on this planet is one big family; we are all brothers and sisters and therefore, should help one another. Currently, the large majority of people disregard this notion; they care more about the people in their own country which, I believe, is an undeveloped way of thinking. Why should love and compassion stop at the border? If we act accordingly to this philosophy, then everyone would have the responsibility to help other people, regardless of country. This is how I imagine an advanced society would act and thus, being a person striving for a better society, I have recognized and accepted this responsibility.


I still don't know what to do with my life; I know I want to make a difference, but I just don't know the details. A part of me wants to figure out in what way I can make the biggest difference and another part of me wants to figure out which job would suit me the best. So I guess my goal would be to find a career that would satisfy both criteria. I thought before that I would gladly work for a company that sells environmentally safe technology, but now I'm not so sure. It has nothing to do with my background; I have absolutely no experience in that field. For a short time I also thought about becoming some sort of teacher because it was something I enjoyed doing, but now that idea is also slowly fading away. Even though I felt like I made a difference being a teacher, I think that difference was largely made outside of class by just chatting with the students. If that is true, then I wouldn't need to become a teacher to make a difference; I would be able to connect with people no matter what I do professionally.

Recently, I've been taking more interest into how to eliminate media censorship. This, of course, has absolutely everything to do with where I am now, in China, but it also has everything to do with my being an American. I do believe in freedom of speech; I believe in it so much that it angers me to know that American media is not objective and it angers me to know that the media in China is heavily censored. To tell you the truth, I don't know what to do about it; however, I do believe that if a problem like this were to be solved, it would be solved from the bottom up. I think the people would have to first realize the problems the current media situation creates and then start working towards how to battle against the institutions of power. I guess a career in any step of this process would be quite fulfilling, but we'll see.